Would *you* change anything of yourself ?

Would *you* change anything of yourself ? 

Yesterday I was talking to someone and he asked me if I ever look at the mirror, if I do see a different person sometimes or would like to be one; they wondered if there was anything that I would change: "do you ever wonder what it would have been if you were born as another person, or more in general – what would you change if you could?".

I did not know what to answer.

At first, I thought it would have been very unpolite to say "no, not really, not since I was 16 years old, more or less…". Well actually that's what I was thinking, tough. Maybe he'll read this. Who cares. I don't feel like I need to make everybody happy anytime, anyway. Who are they after all ? What are they trying to sell ? I don't need to buy things because this society wants to make you think you need them. I don't need to be thinner, fatter, taller, blonder, I don't need an iPod, I don't need a TomTom, I don't need all of the crap this society pushes you to think as being necessary.

That is why I am posting this picture. I was angry back then when it was taken, I was wanting to be someone else like most teenagers who haven't found themselves yet.

What would I change of myself now ?
Nothing, not really. If something has changed, is that I DO like myself these days.

Sure, it would certainly help having more money. We could have a house of our own. Currently we live with my one and only wage – me, my wife, two kids and two cats – and half of this salary goes away in paying the rental of the house – so it's not exactly easy to get on; but that is just material things. We are healty, we are happy. I've even stopped feeling miserable and sorry for myself like a lot of people do. When sometimes I feel weaker and I realize that I might start getting caught in the consumistic trap (nobody's perfect) – which happens when I feel sorry and unfortunate….
to get out of it I usually read something about people in the real poor countries, people at war, people who don't have to eat, and I think what have we done to them to sustain our richness. Then I don't feel sorry for myself. I feel sorry for them, I feel thankful for what I do have. I feel like I should be doing something for them rather than for myself. I there was anything I would change is to have the courage to need even less. Because it is among the poor people, the less fortunate that you mostly discover humanity.
Rich people tend to complain, they forget to be thankful for their situation, they always want to have more.
Sure that if "successful" people, people who think of themselves as being very important, people who make a lot of money and are enterpreneurs, if those people still think they want to change something, if they get excited by stuff like "second life", if they get shaken by looking at themselves in the mirror and they expect you to be like them… if all of these things I have seen are true, then well, then my answer is NO and NO – sincerely I don't want to change anything in my life in the way they mean. There is no project for any killer application or business that I would borrow money for, there is no dotCom follow-up I would be getting rich for.

Probably for this reason, I do LIKE looking at myself in the mirror.
I even laugh like a kid making funny faces at myself, and that is all about.
I don't have to be afraid of my shadow.




One thought on “Would *you* change anything of yourself ?

  • February 10, 2007 at 8:31 pm
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    It is true, sooner or later we all discover this: the more desires we have the poorer we are. If we can accept that everything is just right, what desires are left. When i start to have faith in what we call God, or Love or Universal Energy, when i can accept that there are no mistakes, then there are just lessons. Sometimes i like them sometimes not at all, still i can now, there are no mistakes…
    Actualy we have no choice, we are all born to love. We can love ourselves, our family, the earth, creation or we can love our fears and ego\'s. And even then it is only a matter of time, one day all our fears will have to melt for Love. When we have reached this, nobody can trap us again inwhat we should have or be.
    No more hunting, pushing, stress…
    and it surely starts with acceptance!

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